antum jameelun

you all are beautiful. and i need to speak more in class. but i don't have anything to say. i think i'm in the middle of "culture shock" or whatever. i'm quasi depressed and i really just think that everyone hates me. I mean, why would anyone want to talk to me i'm ugly and stupid. (and i truly believe that. )

i felt really really ignored for parts of this weekend.

in short: i hate you dearly but love me, love me, say that you love me.